contacting my dad
Posted 18 August 2009 - 11:19 AM
I was also reading about the doppelganger theory. I swear that I see men who look exactely like my dad even to the point where I've almost called out to them. I've seen him while I was shopping, driving and the strangest was walking past me on the sidewalk in front of my house when I was sitting quietly reading a book. I definately need closure because I cannot imagine having to go through the rest of my life with this pain and More importently, I don't want my feelings to hold him to this world and not let him move on. Please, I am willing to try anything, I'm desperate. Thank you.
Posted 18 August 2009 - 03:16 PM
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Posted 02 September 2009 - 11:45 AM
Once when I was falling asleep I heard my dad playing guitar in the livingroom but he had been already asleep. It was so strange, as if he was playing it perfectly. And I turned over he seemed even to play softer so I would be able to fall asleep. I think I was tapping into a spirit realm.
The doppleganger universe? I've never read about it. But is it like a parallel universe continuum thing? It sounds interesting...
This might help though: I have realized that I have experienced the spirit world, but it becomes frightening because I am not as used to that type of experience.
We need to embrace the other-experience. If you meditate and raise your energy it will make it much more bearable.
Posted 02 September 2009 - 02:02 PM
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Posted 04 September 2009 - 03:38 PM
I still think that something is going on!!! Today I had to go run some errands. Like I said before, I heard songs on the radio that had special meaning to my dad and I. It's really weird. Songs like Let It Be by The Beatles saying "and though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see." Then later in my trip I heard a song that I have never heard on the radio before called Rubber Biscuit. This was a song that my dad used to play in his band. It's definately one of the dumbest songs I've ever heard. I guess my question is- is it possible that he is trying to tell me something or is this just wishful thinking???
no, i do not believe at all that it is wishful thinking on your part.
perhaps there are wishes involved but not of the delusional or imaginary sort.
when you hear these songs and think of your dad, instead of missing him, reach out into your mind space and feel that he is very, very, very close
"closer to you than you" is how it was explained to me...from someone very close to me, on the other side.
i totally relate to the method of communicating through music - i have the same experience.
at first, i often thought i must be crazy or living in a fantasy world, or something like that
but when i tuned in to my loved one's spirit, i felt it right there with me!
and the more i remembered this, the clearer my perception
it's really easy when it is someone with whom you are so close, as you described in your own relationship with your dad.
you KNOW your dad...he is the same whether in the flesh or free.
and talk to him, too
communication is a two-way street even over the threshold!
I do read my own tarot cards (not very well) but, I'm not sure if I could interpret them correctly or if my head is going to get in the way!!! Sometimes I think I'm just grasping at straws trying to ease my pain.
i think your dad is trying to help you get over your pain.
the best way to overcome the grief of missing someone is to realize death is an illusion based on visual sight. we have 4 other physical senses and who-knows-how-many non-physical senses!
our hearts/souls are our most sensitive organ if we listen.
Posted 04 September 2009 - 03:49 PM
I hope that's true!!! I also that my feelings toward him aren't keeping him here. I was told that I should let him go. It's just so hard since there was no closure. When I asked him to stay sober for 1 day and I would bring the boys to see him and he couldn't do it, my heart broke so bad that I have never recovered!!! Believe me, I understand the disease of addiction!!! I just can't help but wondering what it is he's trying to say. I believe with my whole heart and soul he's here, I just hope that I'm not the one keeping him here. He suffered so much for so long, I just want him to find pease.
i don't think you are keeping him here
it doesn't FEEL like that, to me
and remember, too, that now that he's out from under the weight of flesh and bone, he knows your heart and your feelings toward him. the things that still weigh you down are in you, not him.
i think that his peace is your peace.
if you are as close as you say, then i think that's probably more likely than anything else.
i don't think all spiritual presence in our material reality is caused by *the living* holding on to *the dead*
in fact, i think that is only a very small fraction of the whole - more like a pathology of a spiritual nature
nearly all souls are immediately liberated the moment they *die*, according to accounts of near-death-experiences (which are increasingly numerous)
your dad has just as much free will as you do and vice versa
it is the soul which has free will, not the body
i understand what you are saying about closure, too
the same general thing happened to me when my dad died
different circumstances, but still i was left feeling that i had let him down and "if only," etc.
about a month after he died, he came to me in a dream and let me know that it was okay - that my regrets were from my own failed expectations in myself, and not at all anything to do with him feeling i'd dropped the ball or shirked loving duty
i knew it was him because my own mind would have never imagined the feeling that he conveyed to me, soul to soul
the closure was necessary, to be sure, but it for me, not for him
but what i needed, he needed, too
i hope that made sense.
Posted 05 September 2009 - 09:36 AM
Posted 05 September 2009 - 10:23 AM
maybe the answer is allowing yourself to be angry and then getting over it
if your dad is very close around you these days, maybe that is one of the reasons
your anger can't hurt him because he's got a broader view than we have, right now
his heart is open just because he's not in the delusion of separateness that is human
it's okay to be mad at him, i'm sure
because it is out of love and it's normal
like i said, above, maybe talk to him, directly?
Posted 05 September 2009 - 04:04 PM
Posted 05 September 2009 - 08:56 PM
including ill feelings and such
i have to go to a friend's house for a while and i'm going to think on this
and then get back to you
just don't stress
all things work for the good of those that love HIM
is your dad hispanic?
[if you don't mind me asking]
Posted 06 September 2009 - 07:59 AM
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