Posted 02 July 2010 - 04:14 PM
My name is earthchild87. I live in Salem, OR but am originally from a little town about 30 miles southeast of Salem. I have been practicing Wicca since I was 13. I know this sounds just like an introduction but I really am hoping to gain insight into a personal problem I am having with my faith.
Where I grew up its all farm fields and open nature, but since having my daughter and moving away from "home" into a more urban setting I feel like I've really lost touch with the Mother and Father. I feel like my energy connections to the earth and the feelings of nature are being slowly killed by the concrete and constant noise and air pollution. Its been really disconcerting. I often feel like I'm losing my faith, losing something that I hold very dear to my heart. I know I shouldn't feel this way, because there are a lot of other Witches in the world who practice in bigger cities and more polluted place than the capital of Oregon. I'm feeling really confused and somewhat frightened. I have always been a solitary practitioner and have no "siblings" or mentors to help me through this. I am almost to a state of desperation, frequenting spots here in Salem (and there are quite a few) where people of like faith's hang out, hoping that someone while notice my diminishing spiritual aura.
Is this all in my head? What do I do? Please someone, anyone, help me! I don't want to lose the precious connection I have with the elements, the earth, the moon, sun, and stars... I don't want to lose myself.
Posted 02 July 2010 - 05:19 PM
When I was a child, I went from city to county very easily. Not so easy to do that when you are adult and used to one way or another.
What kind of place are you living iin? Apt? house? townhouse? There are ways to connect even in the city. Concrete is made from a combo of cement and a aggregate mixture (generally made of gravels or crushed rocks such as limestone, or granite, plus a fine aggregate such as sand), water, and chemical admixtures.
So what I am saying is concrete has a connection to earth. You can also do container gardening as well. Might be a way to connect. Any trees around? Get to know them..and don't be afraid to reach out to other wicca practitioners in the area and get some help though them.
Posted 03 July 2010 - 03:20 AM
As a young adult I ended moving back to Salem however, and just moved from Salem last summer again. I find it amusing that no matter where I live...I seek out "country like settings". There are a few beautiful and quiet parks in Salem! I especially liked Orchards Heights park because it's huge, has an off-leash area and more trees then most other parks there. Here is a link to
cities park info page
Also...Driving out towards Sylverton and just getting lost in all the "back roads is very city relieving! What else...mmmm
Well...I think I just spent a lot of time at Orchards park and driving "away" from Salem. I wish you luck in acclimating socially and spiritually.
Posted 07 July 2010 - 04:08 PM
having 2 major changes in your life can affect you in many ways. moving from country life to city life in itself is hard to get used too, then to add a baby in the mix on top of the move is really tough.
I have to put it out there b/c i want to make sure you're being taken care of. If you just had your baby a little while ago please make sure you don't have the beginnings of post partem (not that you do, but in my experience you want to deal w/ medical issues first before dealing w/ your spiritual issues)
ok now that i've gotten that out of the way now onto your spiritual issue:
while i was in college (years ago) i had to move to a city, i also felt unattuned once i was there. to fix this i would find small parks in the area and just sit there and try to block out all the city life and just try to listen to the nature around me. I would also meditate in my shower b/c the water would ground me AND it was a way to connect to nature around me when i didn't have time to visit the park. Also (and i dont' know if you can do this) but getting an animal (like a cat) really helped me connect to natrue again too.
Posted 13 July 2010 - 04:16 PM
Posted 13 July 2010 - 11:22 PM
I didn't lose my mind - I have it backed up on a disk ... somewhere
Posted 15 July 2010 - 09:51 AM
Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:06 AM
I have huge posters with pictures of nature. In front of the kitchen sink, I have a large one of a pasture with lots of wildflowers that I bought at IKEA.
In the bedroom, which I have painted a light pastel green, I have art deco prints by Mucha and some tapestries with soft, natural colors. It feels like I'm in a garden. I also have dark, green sheets, which enhances the nature feeling.
I buy calendars with nice nature pictures, and after the year is over, I take out the pictures I like and hang them around the apartment. I've even blown up photos I took and hung them.
I have a diffuser, too, and use citrus-based oils that are really refreshing for the spirit.
It's tough living in the city when you're a nature person, so you have to cheat a little.
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