I had called her to wish her good luck before the surgery because i had a really bad feeling about it. The conversation went bad and i was angry. Then the day came when i got a call saying she wasn't doing so well after the surgery. She never made it out of the hospital alive.
While she was still holding on (for reasons i believe to personal to disclose) i tried to talk to her. My mother walked me in to the room and as soon as i saw her lost the nerve to speak. I was far from angry at her by this point, just sad for the rest of my family. I knew what was coming. That night she passed on.
Now after so many years i have had two dreams where she was in them. The dreams were crazy as usally mine go, but in them she talked to me. The conversations from both dreams were nothing out of the ordinary. I am not sure it means anything. Although i have been woken out of my sleep by her voice calling my name.
I cannot say that it is definately her trying to reach me or just my own head dealing with unresolved issues. I have yet to lose any sleep over it.
-Spider_rob











