However when I was 17, I thought theses assumptions were B.S. I had been using the Ouiji Board with my friends to actually talk to spirits, or as one friend put it our 'higher forms of consciousness', without problems. I became intrigued with Tarot after visiting Salem, MA, where I bought my first deck. The deck was used constantly as a divination tool, and meditation tool. I even did readings for friends, but had to hide the deck from my family. In August 2000, I performed a reading on myself because my boyfriend was becoming distant. I forgot which type of spread I used, but it was one where you have a card representing yourself in the middle. Surrounding that card are cards representing past occurrences, future happenings, current environment, etc, etc. Anyway, for the environment segment, I had drawn the Death card. At first I thought the death pertained to the death of a notion, ideal, or situation. One month later my uncle died mysteriously. Suicide was the first assumption, but when that didn't make sense my family figured he was murdered. To this day we don’t know how he died (though my father now believes it was a sudden heart attack or aneurism).
Nevertheless, after I put two and two together, I told my mom about the reading. That's when she explained how Tarot cards are evil and invite problems. Whether she is right or not, in 5 years I have not touched that deck. I have had people ask me to do readings for them, but refused. I've heard that if you have not done a reading on yourself for a long time, that the first time you read the cards whether intentionally directed at yourself or not, the reading will be for you. I’m still interested in Tarot, but too afraid to do anything with it. I don't really believe that Tarot is evil itself, but somethings are best left unknown.
