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Sometimes I have such bad nightmares that I awaken and the awful, fearful feeling is still with me. There is no theme to these dreams but the feeling is very real. I can feel an overwhelming entity still in the room after those dreams, and I have to work hard not to let the feeling continue once I'm conscious.
A nightmare I get when I'm sick is where I'm trying to fold something up small and as I fold it more and more, it gets bigger and bigger. As it gets bigger I get a queasy, anxious feeling. I try not to think about it, because I can become queasy.
One childhood nightmare that has always stuck with me was where I was in a really weird, Dali-type house on fire and I was trying to get out. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked horrified and panicked, like in Edvard Munch's painting 'The Scream'. What I looked like in the mirror has always stuck with me.
I also had, and still have now and then, bad dreams about the basement of a house I lived in. I always felt like I was being watched when I was in that basement, or even looking into it from the top of the stairs. I never felt afraid, just uncomfortable. Sometimes it's swamp in the dream, sometimes a dark place.
Ditto my grandmother's house, which always seemed to be a safe place for me when I was a child and being moving around alot. At night to this day, though, I dream that it's dark outside and people are watching in, where I am alone. It's very disconcerting and I don't have an explanation for it.
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Who owns the land? Only the land knows. We mortals are passersby, and our lives are but a brief moment in the great span of time and space. We are born, we live out our lives, and most of us do the best we can with it, but the wind is forever, and the rivers flow forever to the sea, and all the seasons of the weathers will come and go after we are gone. But the Earth endures, the Earth is eternal" - Earl Hamner
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My nightmares
Jan 19 2009, 09:31 AM
